Oh. [Maybe it's true, maybe not. That doesn't stop the little curl of warmth in Koby's chest at the words, the idea that Mihawk hasn't been this tender with many people.
He's more than ready to surrender to the soft touch of those lips on his neck, so relaxed from the massage that he doesn't feel the need to sleep anymore. But then Mihawk's pausing, moving away, and -- asking that question. And part of Koby wants to deflect, close the gap and move things back towards the physical. Back towards something simpler.
But...he's never talked about this. And Mihawk already knows very intimately what Koby's body is like. So...
Rolling onto his side, facing Mihawk, Koby tucks his arm under his head, echoing the other man's posture.] I didn't, really. I was one person for years and years, and then when I was old enough to get away, I just...stopped being that. I found a position on a fishing boat, cut my hair and tried to start a new life. [Somewhat flatly:] I got on the wrong boat. Alvida's boat. And then I was stuck.
[Koby hesitates, breaking eye contact for the first time.] She knew, too.
(Mihawk, like a fool, would deny it is a gesture of tenderness. He would argue it's just practical.
He wouldn't have forced Koby to answer. It wasn't any of Mihawk's business and if there was anything Mihawk could appreciate, it was not wanting to discuss the details of one's background. Many pirates escaped their past by fleeing to the sea. People in poverty, people with no family, people who felt aimless and didn't know where they were supposed to go or who they were supposed to be. It's a tale as old as time and no one owed you their backstory.
Mihawk included.
But then Koby begins to share and Mihawk listens intently in his way, his eyes unblinking, never looking away. Mihawk reaches a hand out, idly sliding his fingers through Koby's hair, twisting it around his finger.)
So few of us are lucky enough to be born exactly who we are meant to be. It takes work to get there and even fewer of us figure it out by the time we are- (How old is Koby again? Legal, he knows, but...)
Eighteen. Nineteen? You've done a better job of it than most.
(Alvida. He nearly rolled his eyes but didn't want it to be read the wrong way. He frowns at Koby looking away, the hesitance.)
I imagine she wasn't particularly accommodating. She isn't exactly known for understanding anyone's potential or value.
[Riiiight, totally practical tender foot massages. Very strategically sound.
The hand in his hair gets a brief pause before Koby closes his eyes, leans slightly into the touch. It's nice. He already knows he likes Mihawk's fingers in his hair, but usually there's a bit more...pulling involved. This is just more of that same gentleness. Part of Koby whispers that this could be a trap, but it's a much smaller part than even a couple days before.
The words are nice too, kinder than Koby anticipated. Mihawk's experience is drastically different, but there's a compassion present all the same. Compassion and a touch of...pride, even. He smiles, bemused.] Nineteen. Thank you. I'm assuming there are people who are... [Thirties? Forties?? Something??] ...older who haven't figured it out either.
[The way Koby draws in on himself, shoulders going tense speaks volumes -- he's grown a lot since Luffy rescued him, but Alvida still clearly has a hold on him.] She mostly used it as another way to control me. She'd threaten to tell the rest of the crew, then leave me locked in a room with them.
[Shaking his head, Koby moves closer, squeezing his eyes shut.] I don't want to think about her. Not here.
(Mihawk was merely being blunt. He so often saw the world plainly and to him, Koby was a young man. Nothing short of it. There was no trap to be had when Mihawk made his interest in Koby plainly. There was nothing here for him to gain from Koby or even the others, though they were all fairly on guard around him. He preferred it that way anyhow. He was not a man built for closeness.
He scarcely knew why he had taken such a closeness to Koby. He told himself it was because the sex was good and Koby was beautiful - it would be ridiculous to not indulge after they already had at the ritual.
The seal was broken so there was no going back anyway. May as well enjoy it while it lasted before Koby's morality reminded him that sleeping with a pirate and a warlord probably went against the grain for a marine.)
There are. (Some people just never had the right interactions or language or experiences.
His jaw tightens at the sight of Koby curling in on himself. He knew Koby had a habit of doing that, a poor posture that reflected a complete lack of self-esteem. Then Koby drops that information and something hostile and hot burns in Mihawk's chest. He has to force himself to relax.
He guides Koby into his chest, curling an arm around him, tight and secure. If they ever wound up back home, he would make quick work of Alvida. The world wouldn't miss her.)
That won't happen to you here. (It's a quiet promise. He won't say I'll keep you safe, but he may as well. He slides his hand up to curl it against the back of Koby's neck, squeezing gently.)
I will take care of your clothes. Think no more of it.
(He hesitates.)
And I will not speak of this to anyone. (He already wasn't the sort to brag about his sexual exploits, but this was different. It was up to Koby who he wanted to share such information with.)
Though, for what it is worth, Jennifer strikes me as the sort of girl who would treat you well regardless.
[The embrace isn't expected -- Koby knows better, he doesn't expect that sort of comfort, that gentleness from anyone. But Mihawk has been nothing but gentle to him, not just that night, but period. He's been flippant and careless and blunt, but not cruel. Not for an instant.
So when he tugs Koby to his chest, smooths a hand over the back of the young man's neck, there's no caution in the arm sliding around the warlord's waist, the nuzzle against his shoulder. Koby doesn't hesitate or flinch from Mihawk's touch, not anymore. He knows it's dangerous, that he's playing with fire and eventually it's just going to hurt him. Logically, he knows: Mihawk is going to end up dropping him when he gets bored. Politely, maybe even gently, but the end will come. This can't last forever.
But right then, it's real. Mihawk is holding him, stroking his hair, banishing the sick fear that comes up whenever Koby thinks too hard about his past -- or his future, for that matter. Mihawk doesn't let him live anywhere but the present, and Koby is shaken by what a gift that is.
So he presses closer, nods faintly at the reassurances and tries to savor the feeling of being held, protected, safe. His fingers absently trail down Mihawk's back, then settle at his hip, thumb stroking back and forth.] Thank you. I -- maybe I'll ask her. I'll work up to it.
[Then he huffs out a sheepish laugh, leaning back enough to look up, meet Mihawk's eyes.] Sorry. You're being so nice and I'm being -- gloomy and stupid. Tell me something you did today. Besides stand in the rain without a shirt.
(Naturally, Mihawk would reject any idea of him being gentle. He was practical, he was fair. He wasn't a recklessly cruel and thoughtlessly violent man like some pirates were known to be. He didn't enjoy bloodshed and suffering for the sake of it all. Well. At least not to the same extent as some. He did have something of a temper when things interrupted his peace. Interrupting a good nap was only fairly compensated with the life of dozens, obviously.
...So maybe he was being a little gentle. Hardly like he was going to think about that anytime soon. Especially not when Koby's body was warm and soft against his own, near enough to enjoy, and he did so want to enjoy. In truth, Mihawk thought similarly to Koby. This was a fling. Mihawk figured he would get bored of it as well one day and leave, and if not that, he figured that that boy Luffy would come to this world and snare Koby's attention entirely. Or some other blucky, high-spirited bastard with a cleaner background and better morals than Mihawk.
He knew that was the reality of what was happening. Whatever this was, they weren't soulmates and they were far from compatible in the long run. If it wasn't Mihawk who ended things, it would be Koby.
But for now, like Koby, it's hard to think about the rationale behind those beliefs. It's hard to feel like there might be a day when he didn't feel like holding Koby after a long day, rubbing his feet, and listening to his problems. It felt...
It felt like there was a point to be had.
For now, it was enough to hold and be held.)
Take your time with it. (There was no rush. He planned to get Koby well-fit clothes as soon as possible. He looks down in surprise when Koby laughs, and then says such an absurd thing that Mihawk almost looks irritated. He grabs Koby's jaw, holding it steadily.)
I'm not being nice. I'm being honest. And you are not being gloomy or stupid. You're being reasonable. There is nothing stupid about wanting basic respect.
(His words cut like a sword, probably a bit too heated, but damn it.)
You want to help people. You say so yourself all the time. Consider showing that same compassion to yourself, Koby.
(Gosh!!! He lets go of his chin at last, sighing, relaxing a bit now that he has said his piece.)
[There's the question, really -- when and if Luffy ever shows up, how would Koby explain this? Would he lean on the strange magic of this place, the ritual that led to this odd alliance? Would he dismiss it as purely physical, seeking comfort and entertainment wherever it could be found?
Or would he try to articulate the way it felt right then, curled up in Mihawk's arms, the way he smelled, the soft rumble of his voice, the way he stroked those deadly fingers through Koby's hair over and over. The way he gripped Koby's face and sternly told him to maybe be a little kinder to himself -- the only person in the world besides Luffy who'd ever suggested he deserved anything better.
Hundreds of men would've quailed under Mihawk's stern words, his intent golden gaze. Hundreds had. But Koby doesn't. He doesn't flinch or pull away or draw in on himself again. He just looks up at Mihawk with those big, intent eyes, open and heartfelt.] You aren't just being honest. You can deny it all you want, but I do know what kindness feels likd.
[Then, dragging his tongue over his lower lip in that thoughtful, anxious way he has, Koby adds:] I've never talked about these things with anyone. I don't know when it's too much, or when to stop. But it's...a relief, to say them. So. Thank you.
[And then, narrowing his eyes slightly in annoyance, Koby inches a bit closer, fingers trailing up Mihawk's side.] I'm being serious. You don't have to tell me all your...secret warlord business, but something. I'd like to hear about your day too.
(It's funny, in a way. Had Mihawk envisioned the ideal partner for himself, it would have been another man who could take him on in a fight. Who could be a complete equal; an exact reflection of his own talent, skill, and passion. He had spent his life wanting to be the best and once he became the best, he now spent it waiting impatiently for someone good enough to try and take that title from him. It was the only relationship he had ever cared about.
But now there was Koby. Koby who didn't even know how to throw a punch let alone wield a sword with a degree of expertise, even the most amateur, and who probably cared nothing for personal power. Yet Koby who, despite being smaller and weaker in every way to Mihawk, showed unwavering boldness and bravery. He didn't cower and back down from Mihawk, and didn't shiver because Mihawk looked at him a little too long.
For someone who spent so much of his life curled over on himself and wished to be unseen, Koby was so much braver than he gave himself credit for. Mihawk could understand why Garp had taken Koby directly under his wing. The potential was maddening.
Yet it wasn't just the future of who Koby could become that intrigued Mihawk. It was the boy in front of him now too. With those wide, earnest eyes that never failed to pin Mihawk more precisely than any sword ever had. He had taken blows that were less agonizingly aimed than this. He says nothing about his kindness, nothing about refusing it or trying to convince Koby otherwise.
Koby thought he was kind.
He watches Koby's tongue and it makes something burn hotter inside of Mihawk. Not just a want, but a fondness, which felt infinitely more dangerous.)
...It has not been too much. And you needn't stop. If you need to talk about these things, I will listen. Regardless of when.
(Every time. He shakes his head at the 'thank you' because there is nothing to provide thanks for. The corner of Mihawk's mouth twitches when Koby gets that telltale look of annoyance on his face. It has quickly become one of Mihawk's favorites.)
Secret warlord business.
(Said so seriously. He exhales shortly through his nose, a puff of amusement and nearly a laugh. He brings their mouths together briefly, because he has to, because Koby was licking his lip and looking so kissable it kind of ached. Mihawk breaks the kiss and settles against the bed, contemplating Koby and what he should say.)
Well. (There was no harm in some honesty, right?)
I am actually quite fond of agriculture. I have been working on a garden when I have the time and resources.
(Which suggests that he definitely lives somewhere out of the castle and maybe has his own place. That or he's just taken over some plot of land who even knows.)
I can't deny that the claw isn't useful for such things. It's rather effective in cutting down weeds.
[Maybe that's the heart of what keeps pulling Koby back here, curled up against Mihawk, watching the deadly grace of his movements, the slight shift of his expressions, learning to read what he'd been convinced was imperceptible -- the belief in what Koby could become, coupled with an appreciation for who he is. Maybe someday the scrawny, scared little pirate captive could become someone impressive, someone courageous and strong and fearsome -- anyone could, with the right training.
But Mihawk's here now. With every one of Koby's insecurities, every fear, every weakness, finding something appealing amidst them all. Kissing Koby like this, like there's something valuable already there. Like Koby himself can be enough.
It's too much to think about, too heavy and warm and painful for how exhausting the day has been. So Koby just leans up into that kiss, humming softly in something dangerously close to contentment. Then he settles, close enough now to share the pillow Mihawk's using, dangerously close to just resting his head on the warlord's shoulder.
That answer is -- unexpected. Very unexpected. Koby blinks a couple times, mouth opening around about forty different questions. A garden? Agriculture? Weed cutting?? Dracule Mihawk is cutting weeds in his free time???
But he wisely refrains, instead just tilting his head to one side, an action which sends that damn loose shirt sliding off his other shoulder, exposing his collarbone. A collarbone littered with marks from Mihawk himself, all vivid against Koby's skin. Totally an accident, of course, the shirt falling off. Definitely not a calculated attempt to get more garden knowledge via seduction.] What kind of garden?
(It's nearly amusing watching Koby gape at him like a fish and Mihawk doesn't offer him any sort of life vest. Then that damn shoulder drops and Mihawk's eyes drop with it. Koby was an absolute menace. Mihawk's mouth began to water and damn it all, it's an effective means of extracting information because Mihawk becomes absentminded in what he says:)
Mostly herbal. Looking for your flowers. And I have been looking for crops. Though the season likely won't take any of it now, it can still be prepared.
(The entire time he's talking, he's moving in on Koby and tucking his face into that delicious part of his body. He kisses over soft skin, leaving bites and sucking at the skin here and there to pepper Koby with fresh bruises. His hand slides down Koby's side and up his shirt.)
I see. [Koby nods very seriously, trying and failing to hide the bemused smile at Mihawk's eyes flicking to the completely-accidental wardrobe malfunction. His moment of feeling smug is short-lived, because then Mihawk's perfect, maddening mouth is on his neck, his shoulder, and it's soon very evident who's in control here.
Trying, as always, to stifle the needy, pleading sounds building in his throat, Koby manages a:] I-I think it's interesting-- [And then there's teeth teasing a particularly sensitive spot where his neck and shoulder meet, and Koby breaks off in a breathless moan.
Any exhaustion is completely forgotten, his whole body gone hot and needy and shivering, the way Mihawk always makes him. One of his hands slides down Mihawk's side, fingers ghosting under the low, loose waist of his pants. Recovering a bit, not willing to be wholly undone just yet, Koby turns to murmur, teasingly, against Mihawk's ear:] More interesting than swords, any day.
[Tfw your not!bf makes fun of your interests to be a brat.]
(Listen to that voice. Ugh. Mihawk could do this every single day of his life and not get bored. He's convinced. He begins to ruck up Koby's shirt, up over his sides, up until he's nearly just about to pull the shirt off when Koby decides to declare that gardening was more interesting than swords. It might be the first time in Mihawk's life that he's genuinely taken off guard because he jerks his head back, visibly gaping at the very idea. He looks so offended!
It's probably absurd! Definitely absurd.
It takes Mihawk exactly 0.2 seconds to realize that Koby is being a brat and he can't decide what to call the sharp roaring emotion that snaps up in him like a wildfire.)
Oh. (You little...He tugs Koby's shirt clear off and immediately winds up rolling them over to pin Koby to the bed against his back. He gathers Koby's hands up, away from his own waistband so that he can pin them above Koby's head. He gazes down at Koby, clicking his tongue.)
You are a bratty one. (Mihawk chides him, but there's something undeniably feral in his eyes. He undoubtedly loved that Koby was bold enough to tease him like this. What a cheeky, cheeky brat.)
[There've probably been dozens -- if not hundreds -- of men whose last living sight is this exactly: Dracule Mihawk leaning over them and clicking his tongue in that chiding way. And here Koby is, pinned to the bed, immobile, helpless and laughing. He seems positively delighted with himself, beaming widely, glasses crooked and hair mussed.]
I'm just being honest. Like you, Mr. Serious Warlord. [There's a bit of struggling against Mihawk's firm grip on his wrists, but it's very clear from the flush spreading down his chest and the familiar way Koby presses his thighs together that he doesn't actually want to go anywhere.
Pausing, panting softly, tongue sliding along his lip again, Koby fixes those intent, bright eyes upwards. His voice is a little shaky, still unused to talking like this, but clearly affected by the words:] You could. You could do anything you wanted to me.
[Objectively, it's true -- Mihawk is the definite winner in any test of physical prowess. But Koby says it less like that, more like...permission. Not "I couldn't stop you", but "I wouldn't stop you."]
(Mihawk isn't sure he has ever made anyone laugh. Not like this. Especially not in bed. He just watches helplessly because this is about the point that Mihawk realizes how dangerous this whole thing is. He realizes that he wants to make Koby look like this more often. Hair a mess, glasses carelessly tilted, face flush with arousal and amusement.)
Mr. Serious Warlord. (Do you hear yourself? People had been killed for less around Mihawk, and yet he just clucks his tongue again.)
I could, couldn't I?
(His gaze drags over Koby and he knows that Koby meant it. That he could do anything he wanted to Koby and Koby would be more than happy to receive it. And he knows that despite everything, despite who Mihawk was, consent was at the forefront of their relationship. Mihawk might be holding Koby down, might be the one to instigate and take, and take, but at the end of the day, Koby truly held the reigns.
If he so much as whispered 'stop' Mihawk would without a second thought. He would never admit it, not even to himself, but Koby had a good leash on him already.)
If you're feeling so honest tonight then why don't you tell me what you want?
[The way Mihawk looks at him -- hungry, a touch possessive, making Koby feel like he's been cornered by something dangerous and predatory. And rather than terror -- which he should absolutely, logically feel -- he just feels excited, breath coming quicker, eyes dark and eager.
Biting his lip a bit, Koby lifts his chin, arching his back so he can feel Mihawk's skin against his. He tugs a bit against the grip on his wrists, squirming a bit and gently nudging his knee up between the pirate's legs. Completely accidentally, of course.] I have some ideas. But you'd need to let me up.
[The knee moves, slowly, accompanied by one of those sweet, innocent smiles. Koby knows he doesn't need to lay on the seduction, that Mihawk would never force him into anything -- he's always known that, since the beginning. He's cautious of the man for many, many reasons, but fear that he'd demand more than Koby wanted to give isn't one of them. Whenever he tenses, even for an instant, whenever he draws in on himself without thinking, Mihawk always pulls back. He waits until Koby initiates again. Every time.
So he rises up, pressing his body to Mihawk's, licks his lips and breathes out:] Let me up and lie back. Okay?
(It's tempting to keep Koby pinned, but the idea of what Koby might have in mind is far more interesting. Especially with that knee pressing up between his legs. Koby might be new to sex, but he wasn't so naive that Mihawk thought he was being accidentally sexy. He presses himself against that knee for just a moment, for relief, because he wasn't sure when he might get more relief.)
Who am I to say no?
(Especially when Koby was looking at him like that. He lets go of Koby's hands and obediently rolls over onto his back.)
[Koby never doubted that Mihawk would obey, not for a moment -- although the subtle grind forward against his knee is definitely tempting enough that for a moment he considers just going back to making out for a couple hours first. But no, the warlord's already moving, lying back in that languid, careless way he has, like a satisfied cat.
Sitting up slowly, Koby reaches to adjust his glasses, raking his fingers backwards through his hair and trying not to stare too openly. He doesn't usually get a chance to really admire Mihawk -- usually he's too far gone to really pay attention to anything except how good he feels. But there's a lot to look at, the planes of muscle and sinew, the warm tone of Mihawk's skin, the subtle quickening of his breath that's the only thing that suggests that he's at all affected. Koby exhales, slowly, almost says what he's thinking -- you're beautiful too.
But there's that insistent, demanding ache low in his stomach, pooling between his legs, prompting him to get moving, because denial is not something Koby's great at. He rises up on his knees, hooking his thumbs into his (stupid, pinned, ill-fitting) pants and pushing them down just a bit.]
Don't move your hands. [It's soft, laced with a firm, commanding tone that should be out of place with Koby's -- everything. But he commits to it, giving Mihawk one of those intent, unflinching looks, like there's nothing frightening or strange about giving a command to one of the deadliest men on the seas. Then the young man eases his pants the rest of the way off and -- nope, he isn't wearing anything under them. Not a stitch.
Face reddening, Koby tosses the pants to the ground and moves on to unlace Mihawk's, giving him a look that clearly dares him to mention a word about the no-underwear thing. He wasn't planning ahead. Nothing fits him well, that's all.]
(He can obey when it benefits him to. And right now, that benefit was this sublime creature slipping out of his pants and looking at Mihawk like he may as well be the one piece himself.
He likes Koby commanding, he realizes. He likes the confidence of it and he thinks it would be good to hand Koby over that control more often. Why not hand over the power when he knew he could take it back at any moment? The willingness to submit was erotic in its own way. The way Koby wasn't afraid of him, the way it made no sense that this was the same person who cowered and acted like he was so incapable.
His eyes drop and it says something that his mouth waters at the very sight of Koby naked. He swallows. When Koby gives him that look, Mihawk can't help himself. He begins to smirk, something sharp and starved, barely restrained.)
I'm not saying anything. (He assures, his eyes bright with mirth that he knew precisely what Koby was looking at him for.)
[The scowl Koby gives Mihawk is so indignant and also so not intimidating at all. He's very red in the face, tugging Mihawk's pants down and mumbling:] You didn't have to, it's all over your face, I told you nothing fits right here.
[Still, there's a pleased little smile on his face all the same, considering he can feel Mihawk's gaze on him as tangibly as a touch. It's -- nice. He's getting much too used to being admired, but he isn't about to stop it right then.
Instead, once the warlord is naked too (which takes a minute; Mihawk is about 60% leg), Koby crawls back up to straddle over his waist, rising up on his knees, thighs bracketing the man's hips. The dim light of the fireplace is enough to see how turned on he is, how the insides of his thighs are streaked wet, but he doesn't lower down, doesn't let Mihawk do anything except admire.
Reaching out, Koby takes Mihawk's hands and moves them by his head, their positions reversed wholly now. He takes a slow, measured breath, then leans down, kissing Mihawk deep and firm. His turn to be possessive. His turn to tease. They've slept together a handful of times, but Koby's always been on his back or bent over something. This is the first time he's had this much power, been on top.]
Remember, don't move. [He breathes it out, reaching down to stroke up the length of Mihawk's cock, making sure he's hard enough.] Unless you really can't stand it. [And, judging by how slow, how unhurried Koby's hand is, he's going to do everything he can't to make obeying unbearable.]
I can think of something that fits perfectly. (Yes, he is talking about how he fits perfectly inside of Koby. Whether it is his cock, fingers, or mouth. His smug expression remains because Koby's blushing smile was all too charming and he knew the young man wasn't about to stop. He allows his hands to be moved, absently curling them into loose fists. He wasn't used to having anything to do with his hands.
He sees that telling wetness and again, hot desire pulses through him. Enough to make his cock twitch. By now, he was more than half-hard and well on his way to being completely hard as Koby grips his cock. Despite being together multiple times, they had only just barely scraped the surface of being together. He was still mastering Koby's body and this was an entirely new angle.)
You'll find that I have infinite patience when the payout is worth it.
(And he does.)
My question is if you can stand it. (His eyes flicker down and he makes a slow show of sliding his tongue across his own bottom lip, tipping his head to the side.)
You're already a mess. Do you want me to tidy you up while we wait? I only need my tongue to pull you apart.
You know what I mean. [There's that same mixture of exasperation and fondness that Mihawk seems to prompt so easily from Koby. But it's clearly overridden by desire, by having Mihawk beneath him, all his to enjoy as long as he wants. It's an illusion -- Mihawk could sit up and leave at any time and Koby wouldn't be able to give more than a token protest.
But he's not leaving. He's there, beautiful and frustrating. He's not going anywhere for at least a little while. The thought is oddly comforting, and it shows on Koby's face for an instant, a flicker of bittersweetness that he covers up by shifting backwards, bracing himself with one hand on Mihawk's chest.]
I'll take it into consideration. [He says it almost primly, squeezing Mihawk's cock once more, then moving his hand away. Keeping their eyes locked, Koby slowly drags his own fingers through the slick gathering between his legs, rising up on his knees so Mihawk can see, can watch him touch, can see him press his index finger inside, prompting a soft, shuddery exhale. Then he settles down, slowly, grinding the wet seam of his cunt along Mihawk's cock, a languid, unhurried roll of his hips.]
But I think I like this better, right now. [It's breathless, a little embarrassed at his own daring, but it's soon eclipsed by how good this feels, rocking his hips just slightly, just enough to tease them both, enough to drip all over Mihawk's cock.]
Do I. (Of course he does. Despite their differences, their ease of communication was honestly ridiculous. Mihawk could leave at any time. However, it was far more likely that he instead decides he doesn't want to wait anymore and just ravishes Koby without restraint. It's a nice thought. Maybe one of these days he would just take Koby with absolute force. Not that kind, of course, but seize him and break him apart.
This is nice though. This is better than nice. Mihawk was used to taking the dominant role. He was used to being the one to make the assertive moves and decide how sex would unfold. He didn't trust others to be good enough at sex to give them the reigns. And really, he had no reason to trust Koby with that either.
The difference was that he wanted to. He liked the way Koby didn't really know what he was doing, but that Koby wanted to do it so badly. That he was passionate about wanting to be good. It already made him better than most Mihawk had slept with. Enthusiasm went a long way.
Plus there was something something about emotions or whatever, but Mihawk wasn't paying any attention to that part of the situationship.
It's evident the moment Mihawk is hit with what Koby does. The smirk drops from his face and his jaw clenches up in that now telling way of his whenever Koby manages to sneak under his skin. A gesture of control and the implication that Koby had managed to rattle that control even if only mildly.
He watches Koby with rapt attention. Knowing how prude and squeaky clean Koby was, the sight of Koby touching himself and then grinding against Mihawk was arguably one of the hottest things Mihawk had ever seen. Maybe actually the hottest. Then Koby slips his finger inside of himself and Mihawk's mind goes completely blank. The same way it went blank and steady during the middle of a good fight. There was nothing but Koby. No castle, no strange world, no pirates, no marines, no sea, no land. Nothing. Just Koby.
He's clenching his teeth hard, but his hands even harder, blunt, clean nails biting into the meat of his palms. He exhales slowly through his nose, trying hard to maintain a sense of dignity.
His pupils have blown out and it only serves to emphasize his strange, ringed eyes. How foolish of people to not realize how well paid he was for his allegiance to Koby and the straw hats. He would burn cities down just for a second of this. It gave him a sense of liveliness that he rarely found anymore these days - even with sword fighting.
Life had become so dull. There had been no one as good with swords as he was. He had never been swayed by treasures or sex. Life was long and he had seen and done it all. These days, he often felt like there was nothing left to do. That there was nothing left to surprise him, to tantalize him, to challenge him.
Yet here he was. All within the same short frame of time, his life had been twisted around on itself. Expectations were exceeded. First came Zoro with his ridiculous three swords and recklessness, but his obvious potential. Someone who had given Mihawk a glimmer of anticipation and hope.
Then came Koby. Koby gave him things that Mihawk didn't realize he wanted or cared about. He had never chased sex the way others had, but there was an allure to Koby that caught him off guard just as much as Zoro had, just in a different realm. Koby who would lose immediately in a fight to Mihawk smiled and laughed with him in bed. Koby had his strict moral code and disdain for pirates and men like Mihawk.
Yes, Mihawk knew this would never last. Not when people like Luffy existed who would guide Koby's heart at the end of the day. Even if Mihawk could make Koby's toes curl and his thighs quiver, Mihawk wasn't the sort of person Koby would keep his eyes on for long. It was an arrangement. A temporary agreement until Koby could figure out another way to survive in this world.
No one from home trusted Mihawk, and they were right to distrust. It was nothing about deserve. Mihawk did not believe in such things. He believed in rationality and logic. The others would continue to distrust him. For now, it would be enough that Zoro had agreed to train with him. It was enough that Koby agreed to sleep with him.
Mihawk closes his eyes to soak in the sensation of Koby sliding against him. He had fallen silent, but more out of distrust for himself. He felt like he was on the brink of saying something absurd or losing control embarrassingly fast.
Once he felt a bit more in charge, he opened his eyes back up.)
You are such an unexpected delight. (Okay, see, now, that's not at all what he had wanted to say, damn it.)
[This time, Koby's watching for it, the jump of the muscle in Mihawk's jaw that says he's clenching his teeth, that his effortless composure has slipped just slightly. He sees it, and that smile is back on his face, warm and bright and so damn proud that it's impossible to hide. He reaches out with the hand not braced on Mihawk's chest, the hand that had just been touching himself, sliding his slick fingers over the pirate's jawline, then tracing the shape of his mouth.]
Good. [It's soft, heated -- it's praise. This thing between them makes no sense to anyone else, because they can't conceive why Dracule Mihawk, the warlord of the seas, the greatest swordsman of the age, would possibly find anything valuable in sharing the bed of a green, untested, scrawny little marine cadet. And when he thinks about it like that, Koby can't argue. He doesn't understand it either. Mihawk could have anyone with him right now.
But he doesn't. He has Koby, trembling and breathless, cupping Mihawk's face and leaning in for another kiss, this one deeper, messy, hungry. He has Koby in his lap, spread out and shivering and grinding against his cock, shifting his hips and gasping into his mouth at the teasing nudge to his clit. He's here. He's real and he's here, and Koby is --
-- closing his eyes, resting his forehead against Mihawk's, trying to catch his breath. It's just endorphins, just chemicals in his brain, his body, betraying him. Making him feel things, with that raw, open-hearted honesty the world hasn't beaten out of him yet. Making him think that maybe, maybe...he can have this. Maybe this won't disappear.
Maybe Koby's allowed to hold onto one damn thing in his entire life, and maybe, god damn it, he wants it to be this.
At least it's not abnormal for Koby to get teary in bed. That way when he opens his eyes and they're bright and wet, it won't seem out of place. He exhales, rising up on his knees again, then reaching back once more. He can think about things later, when he's alone. Right now he doesn't want to waste a single second.] Your turn. [One hand curls around Mihawk's cock, guiding the head to slide through the soaked mess of his cunt, teasing up and down, slowly. Koby leans forward, kisses the corner of Mihawk's mouth, breathes against his lips:] Beg.
(He wants to chase that finger and lick off what he could. He had become addicted to the taste of Koby and had little shame in making that obvious. The praise makes something shutter inside of Mihawk. Praise didn't come his way often these days. No one had to compliment the greatest swordsman alive, after all, and for the most part, he was too arrogant to care about compliments and praise. But this praise was different. This praise slid into him and stroked some part of his ego that he had no clue could even be stroked anymore.
He kisses back like a man who has gone days without food or water. Desperation slipped between their tongues. It's difficult to not grab his face, not touch, but he complies to Koby's original command of don't move.
He opens his eyes to Koby's wet eyes, and a fierce part of him wants to kiss Koby tenderly, as he finds himself wanting to do with increasing frequency lately. It's on the tip of his tongue to suggest that he take back over, that he hold Koby and fuck him slow.
But Koby gathers himself. More than gathers himself. A breath stutters out of him as his cock is guided to Koby's cunt and it may as well be the goddamn holy land for the way Mihawk tenses up in anticipation. What he doesn't expect is for Koby to tell Mihawk to beg. It makes his brain pop off a bit, his gaze vacant, because frankly, literally no one alive has ever told Mihawk to beg or anything like it.
It's absurd. It's ridiculous and borderline suicidal to tell a man with such pride and prestige to beg for the likes of a lowly marine cadet.
But this isn't just some man and this isn't just some cadet.
This is Mihawk and Koby. Koby who, Mihawk realizes, could possibly get Mihawk to agree to just about anything when the delicious swell of his cunt is grinding against his cock like that.
Perhaps for a night, he can put his ego aside after all.)
...Please. (His voice comes out quiet and almost awkward. Mihawk doesn't know if he has ever said 'please' in any semblance of sincerity. Sarcasm was part of his native tongue but today, it was absent entirely. He lets out another breath, shakier.)
[No matter what happens later -- in the vast, shapeless future that stretches out before them, here in the castle or back home or something in between -- Koby knows that this won't be something he ever shares. Mihawk looking up at him, raw and honest and soft and saying please -- that's his. Nothing and nobody can ever take that away. Whether this is real or not, he can have this one, brief, rare moment of vulnerability for the rest of his life.
There's another one of those smiles, warm and fond and proud, there's Koby's hand at the side of Mihawk's face for a moment longer, thumbing the corner of his mouth before moving back to brace himself. His fingers spread wide on Mihawk's chest, over his heart, claws digging in just slightly as he obeys, as he sinks down onto the warlord's cock in one fluid, smooth motion.
And then they dig in a little more, because the angle, the depth is entirely new, getting a shaky, shuddery breath that feels like it comes right from Koby's soul. He has to stay still for a moment, adjusting, heart pounding, thighs shivering, cunt throbbing around Mihawk. He'd had all these ideas about teasing more, about riding the pirate to completion in full, smug control of the entire situation -- and maybe, someday, he will.
But right now, trembling, teary, leaving scratches down Mihawk's chest, Koby lifts his eyes again and pleads, softly:] Touch me. [Having the power isn't worth not having those hands on him, guiding, prompting, caressing. Koby shifts his hips, whines high and shaky in his throat.] Please.
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DEFS lmao
He's more than ready to surrender to the soft touch of those lips on his neck, so relaxed from the massage that he doesn't feel the need to sleep anymore. But then Mihawk's pausing, moving away, and -- asking that question. And part of Koby wants to deflect, close the gap and move things back towards the physical. Back towards something simpler.
But...he's never talked about this. And Mihawk already knows very intimately what Koby's body is like. So...
Rolling onto his side, facing Mihawk, Koby tucks his arm under his head, echoing the other man's posture.] I didn't, really. I was one person for years and years, and then when I was old enough to get away, I just...stopped being that. I found a position on a fishing boat, cut my hair and tried to start a new life. [Somewhat flatly:] I got on the wrong boat. Alvida's boat. And then I was stuck.
[Koby hesitates, breaking eye contact for the first time.] She knew, too.
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He wouldn't have forced Koby to answer. It wasn't any of Mihawk's business and if there was anything Mihawk could appreciate, it was not wanting to discuss the details of one's background. Many pirates escaped their past by fleeing to the sea. People in poverty, people with no family, people who felt aimless and didn't know where they were supposed to go or who they were supposed to be. It's a tale as old as time and no one owed you their backstory.
Mihawk included.
But then Koby begins to share and Mihawk listens intently in his way, his eyes unblinking, never looking away. Mihawk reaches a hand out, idly sliding his fingers through Koby's hair, twisting it around his finger.)
So few of us are lucky enough to be born exactly who we are meant to be. It takes work to get there and even fewer of us figure it out by the time we are- (How old is Koby again? Legal, he knows, but...)
Eighteen. Nineteen? You've done a better job of it than most.
(Alvida. He nearly rolled his eyes but didn't want it to be read the wrong way. He frowns at Koby looking away, the hesitance.)
I imagine she wasn't particularly accommodating. She isn't exactly known for understanding anyone's potential or value.
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The hand in his hair gets a brief pause before Koby closes his eyes, leans slightly into the touch. It's nice. He already knows he likes Mihawk's fingers in his hair, but usually there's a bit more...pulling involved. This is just more of that same gentleness. Part of Koby whispers that this could be a trap, but it's a much smaller part than even a couple days before.
The words are nice too, kinder than Koby anticipated. Mihawk's experience is drastically different, but there's a compassion present all the same. Compassion and a touch of...pride, even. He smiles, bemused.] Nineteen. Thank you. I'm assuming there are people who are... [Thirties? Forties?? Something??] ...older who haven't figured it out either.
[The way Koby draws in on himself, shoulders going tense speaks volumes -- he's grown a lot since Luffy rescued him, but Alvida still clearly has a hold on him.] She mostly used it as another way to control me. She'd threaten to tell the rest of the crew, then leave me locked in a room with them.
[Shaking his head, Koby moves closer, squeezing his eyes shut.] I don't want to think about her. Not here.
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He scarcely knew why he had taken such a closeness to Koby. He told himself it was because the sex was good and Koby was beautiful - it would be ridiculous to not indulge after they already had at the ritual.
The seal was broken so there was no going back anyway. May as well enjoy it while it lasted before Koby's morality reminded him that sleeping with a pirate and a warlord probably went against the grain for a marine.)
There are. (Some people just never had the right interactions or language or experiences.
His jaw tightens at the sight of Koby curling in on himself. He knew Koby had a habit of doing that, a poor posture that reflected a complete lack of self-esteem. Then Koby drops that information and something hostile and hot burns in Mihawk's chest. He has to force himself to relax.
He guides Koby into his chest, curling an arm around him, tight and secure. If they ever wound up back home, he would make quick work of Alvida. The world wouldn't miss her.)
That won't happen to you here. (It's a quiet promise. He won't say I'll keep you safe, but he may as well. He slides his hand up to curl it against the back of Koby's neck, squeezing gently.)
I will take care of your clothes. Think no more of it.
(He hesitates.)
And I will not speak of this to anyone. (He already wasn't the sort to brag about his sexual exploits, but this was different. It was up to Koby who he wanted to share such information with.)
Though, for what it is worth, Jennifer strikes me as the sort of girl who would treat you well regardless.
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So when he tugs Koby to his chest, smooths a hand over the back of the young man's neck, there's no caution in the arm sliding around the warlord's waist, the nuzzle against his shoulder. Koby doesn't hesitate or flinch from Mihawk's touch, not anymore. He knows it's dangerous, that he's playing with fire and eventually it's just going to hurt him. Logically, he knows: Mihawk is going to end up dropping him when he gets bored. Politely, maybe even gently, but the end will come. This can't last forever.
But right then, it's real. Mihawk is holding him, stroking his hair, banishing the sick fear that comes up whenever Koby thinks too hard about his past -- or his future, for that matter. Mihawk doesn't let him live anywhere but the present, and Koby is shaken by what a gift that is.
So he presses closer, nods faintly at the reassurances and tries to savor the feeling of being held, protected, safe. His fingers absently trail down Mihawk's back, then settle at his hip, thumb stroking back and forth.] Thank you. I -- maybe I'll ask her. I'll work up to it.
[Then he huffs out a sheepish laugh, leaning back enough to look up, meet Mihawk's eyes.] Sorry. You're being so nice and I'm being -- gloomy and stupid. Tell me something you did today. Besides stand in the rain without a shirt.
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...So maybe he was being a little gentle. Hardly like he was going to think about that anytime soon. Especially not when Koby's body was warm and soft against his own, near enough to enjoy, and he did so want to enjoy. In truth, Mihawk thought similarly to Koby. This was a fling. Mihawk figured he would get bored of it as well one day and leave, and if not that, he figured that that boy Luffy would come to this world and snare Koby's attention entirely. Or some other blucky, high-spirited bastard with a cleaner background and better morals than Mihawk.
He knew that was the reality of what was happening. Whatever this was, they weren't soulmates and they were far from compatible in the long run. If it wasn't Mihawk who ended things, it would be Koby.
But for now, like Koby, it's hard to think about the rationale behind those beliefs. It's hard to feel like there might be a day when he didn't feel like holding Koby after a long day, rubbing his feet, and listening to his problems. It felt...
It felt like there was a point to be had.
For now, it was enough to hold and be held.)
Take your time with it. (There was no rush. He planned to get Koby well-fit clothes as soon as possible. He looks down in surprise when Koby laughs, and then says such an absurd thing that Mihawk almost looks irritated. He grabs Koby's jaw, holding it steadily.)
I'm not being nice. I'm being honest. And you are not being gloomy or stupid. You're being reasonable. There is nothing stupid about wanting basic respect.
(His words cut like a sword, probably a bit too heated, but damn it.)
You want to help people. You say so yourself all the time. Consider showing that same compassion to yourself, Koby.
(Gosh!!! He lets go of his chin at last, sighing, relaxing a bit now that he has said his piece.)
I stood inside without a shirt. (Smarmy bastard.)
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Or would he try to articulate the way it felt right then, curled up in Mihawk's arms, the way he smelled, the soft rumble of his voice, the way he stroked those deadly fingers through Koby's hair over and over. The way he gripped Koby's face and sternly told him to maybe be a little kinder to himself -- the only person in the world besides Luffy who'd ever suggested he deserved anything better.
Hundreds of men would've quailed under Mihawk's stern words, his intent golden gaze. Hundreds had. But Koby doesn't. He doesn't flinch or pull away or draw in on himself again. He just looks up at Mihawk with those big, intent eyes, open and heartfelt.] You aren't just being honest. You can deny it all you want, but I do know what kindness feels likd.
[Then, dragging his tongue over his lower lip in that thoughtful, anxious way he has, Koby adds:] I've never talked about these things with anyone. I don't know when it's too much, or when to stop. But it's...a relief, to say them. So. Thank you.
[And then, narrowing his eyes slightly in annoyance, Koby inches a bit closer, fingers trailing up Mihawk's side.] I'm being serious. You don't have to tell me all your...secret warlord business, but something. I'd like to hear about your day too.
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But now there was Koby. Koby who didn't even know how to throw a punch let alone wield a sword with a degree of expertise, even the most amateur, and who probably cared nothing for personal power. Yet Koby who, despite being smaller and weaker in every way to Mihawk, showed unwavering boldness and bravery. He didn't cower and back down from Mihawk, and didn't shiver because Mihawk looked at him a little too long.
For someone who spent so much of his life curled over on himself and wished to be unseen, Koby was so much braver than he gave himself credit for. Mihawk could understand why Garp had taken Koby directly under his wing. The potential was maddening.
Yet it wasn't just the future of who Koby could become that intrigued Mihawk. It was the boy in front of him now too. With those wide, earnest eyes that never failed to pin Mihawk more precisely than any sword ever had. He had taken blows that were less agonizingly aimed than this. He says nothing about his kindness, nothing about refusing it or trying to convince Koby otherwise.
Koby thought he was kind.
He watches Koby's tongue and it makes something burn hotter inside of Mihawk. Not just a want, but a fondness, which felt infinitely more dangerous.)
...It has not been too much. And you needn't stop. If you need to talk about these things, I will listen. Regardless of when.
(Every time. He shakes his head at the 'thank you' because there is nothing to provide thanks for. The corner of Mihawk's mouth twitches when Koby gets that telltale look of annoyance on his face. It has quickly become one of Mihawk's favorites.)
Secret warlord business.
(Said so seriously. He exhales shortly through his nose, a puff of amusement and nearly a laugh. He brings their mouths together briefly, because he has to, because Koby was licking his lip and looking so kissable it kind of ached. Mihawk breaks the kiss and settles against the bed, contemplating Koby and what he should say.)
Well. (There was no harm in some honesty, right?)
I am actually quite fond of agriculture. I have been working on a garden when I have the time and resources.
(Which suggests that he definitely lives somewhere out of the castle and maybe has his own place. That or he's just taken over some plot of land who even knows.)
I can't deny that the claw isn't useful for such things. It's rather effective in cutting down weeds.
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But Mihawk's here now. With every one of Koby's insecurities, every fear, every weakness, finding something appealing amidst them all. Kissing Koby like this, like there's something valuable already there. Like Koby himself can be enough.
It's too much to think about, too heavy and warm and painful for how exhausting the day has been. So Koby just leans up into that kiss, humming softly in something dangerously close to contentment. Then he settles, close enough now to share the pillow Mihawk's using, dangerously close to just resting his head on the warlord's shoulder.
That answer is -- unexpected. Very unexpected. Koby blinks a couple times, mouth opening around about forty different questions. A garden? Agriculture? Weed cutting?? Dracule Mihawk is cutting weeds in his free time???
But he wisely refrains, instead just tilting his head to one side, an action which sends that damn loose shirt sliding off his other shoulder, exposing his collarbone. A collarbone littered with marks from Mihawk himself, all vivid against Koby's skin. Totally an accident, of course, the shirt falling off. Definitely not a calculated attempt to get more garden knowledge via seduction.] What kind of garden?
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Mostly herbal. Looking for your flowers. And I have been looking for crops. Though the season likely won't take any of it now, it can still be prepared.
(The entire time he's talking, he's moving in on Koby and tucking his face into that delicious part of his body. He kisses over soft skin, leaving bites and sucking at the skin here and there to pepper Koby with fresh bruises. His hand slides down Koby's side and up his shirt.)
Nothing interesting.
(At least not as interesting as Koby's body.)
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Trying, as always, to stifle the needy, pleading sounds building in his throat, Koby manages a:] I-I think it's interesting-- [And then there's teeth teasing a particularly sensitive spot where his neck and shoulder meet, and Koby breaks off in a breathless moan.
Any exhaustion is completely forgotten, his whole body gone hot and needy and shivering, the way Mihawk always makes him. One of his hands slides down Mihawk's side, fingers ghosting under the low, loose waist of his pants. Recovering a bit, not willing to be wholly undone just yet, Koby turns to murmur, teasingly, against Mihawk's ear:] More interesting than swords, any day.
[Tfw your not!bf makes fun of your interests to be a brat.]
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It's probably absurd!
Definitely absurd.It takes Mihawk exactly 0.2 seconds to realize that Koby is being a brat and he can't decide what to call the sharp roaring emotion that snaps up in him like a wildfire.)
Oh. (You little...He tugs Koby's shirt clear off and immediately winds up rolling them over to pin Koby to the bed against his back. He gathers Koby's hands up, away from his own waistband so that he can pin them above Koby's head. He gazes down at Koby, clicking his tongue.)
You are a bratty one. (Mihawk chides him, but there's something undeniably feral in his eyes. He undoubtedly loved that Koby was bold enough to tease him like this. What a cheeky, cheeky brat.)
I should spank you for that one.
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I'm just being honest. Like you, Mr. Serious Warlord. [There's a bit of struggling against Mihawk's firm grip on his wrists, but it's very clear from the flush spreading down his chest and the familiar way Koby presses his thighs together that he doesn't actually want to go anywhere.
Pausing, panting softly, tongue sliding along his lip again, Koby fixes those intent, bright eyes upwards. His voice is a little shaky, still unused to talking like this, but clearly affected by the words:] You could. You could do anything you wanted to me.
[Objectively, it's true -- Mihawk is the definite winner in any test of physical prowess. But Koby says it less like that, more like...permission. Not "I couldn't stop you", but "I wouldn't stop you."]
i can't believe they invented love
Mr. Serious Warlord. (Do you hear yourself? People had been killed for less around Mihawk, and yet he just clucks his tongue again.)
I could, couldn't I?
(His gaze drags over Koby and he knows that Koby meant it. That he could do anything he wanted to Koby and Koby would be more than happy to receive it. And he knows that despite everything, despite who Mihawk was, consent was at the forefront of their relationship. Mihawk might be holding Koby down, might be the one to instigate and take, and take, but at the end of the day, Koby truly held the reigns.
If he so much as whispered 'stop' Mihawk would without a second thought. He would never admit it, not even to himself, but Koby had a good leash on him already.)
If you're feeling so honest tonight then why don't you tell me what you want?
LITERALLY i'm literally feral abt them
Biting his lip a bit, Koby lifts his chin, arching his back so he can feel Mihawk's skin against his. He tugs a bit against the grip on his wrists, squirming a bit and gently nudging his knee up between the pirate's legs. Completely accidentally, of course.] I have some ideas. But you'd need to let me up.
[The knee moves, slowly, accompanied by one of those sweet, innocent smiles. Koby knows he doesn't need to lay on the seduction, that Mihawk would never force him into anything -- he's always known that, since the beginning. He's cautious of the man for many, many reasons, but fear that he'd demand more than Koby wanted to give isn't one of them. Whenever he tenses, even for an instant, whenever he draws in on himself without thinking, Mihawk always pulls back. He waits until Koby initiates again. Every time.
So he rises up, pressing his body to Mihawk's, licks his lips and breathes out:] Let me up and lie back. Okay?
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(It's tempting to keep Koby pinned, but the idea of what Koby might have in mind is far more interesting. Especially with that knee pressing up between his legs. Koby might be new to sex, but he wasn't so naive that Mihawk thought he was being accidentally sexy. He presses himself against that knee for just a moment, for relief, because he wasn't sure when he might get more relief.)
Who am I to say no?
(Especially when Koby was looking at him like that. He lets go of Koby's hands and obediently rolls over onto his back.)
Do as you please, then.
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Sitting up slowly, Koby reaches to adjust his glasses, raking his fingers backwards through his hair and trying not to stare too openly. He doesn't usually get a chance to really admire Mihawk -- usually he's too far gone to really pay attention to anything except how good he feels. But there's a lot to look at, the planes of muscle and sinew, the warm tone of Mihawk's skin, the subtle quickening of his breath that's the only thing that suggests that he's at all affected. Koby exhales, slowly, almost says what he's thinking -- you're beautiful too.
But there's that insistent, demanding ache low in his stomach, pooling between his legs, prompting him to get moving, because denial is not something Koby's great at. He rises up on his knees, hooking his thumbs into his (stupid, pinned, ill-fitting) pants and pushing them down just a bit.]
Don't move your hands. [It's soft, laced with a firm, commanding tone that should be out of place with Koby's -- everything. But he commits to it, giving Mihawk one of those intent, unflinching looks, like there's nothing frightening or strange about giving a command to one of the deadliest men on the seas. Then the young man eases his pants the rest of the way off and -- nope, he isn't wearing anything under them. Not a stitch.
Face reddening, Koby tosses the pants to the ground and moves on to unlace Mihawk's, giving him a look that clearly dares him to mention a word about the no-underwear thing. He wasn't planning ahead. Nothing fits him well, that's all.]
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(He can obey when it benefits him to. And right now, that benefit was this sublime creature slipping out of his pants and looking at Mihawk like he may as well be the one piece himself.
He likes Koby commanding, he realizes. He likes the confidence of it and he thinks it would be good to hand Koby over that control more often. Why not hand over the power when he knew he could take it back at any moment? The willingness to submit was erotic in its own way. The way Koby wasn't afraid of him, the way it made no sense that this was the same person who cowered and acted like he was so incapable.
His eyes drop and it says something that his mouth waters at the very sight of Koby naked. He swallows. When Koby gives him that look, Mihawk can't help himself. He begins to smirk, something sharp and starved, barely restrained.)
I'm not saying anything. (He assures, his eyes bright with mirth that he knew precisely what Koby was looking at him for.)
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[Still, there's a pleased little smile on his face all the same, considering he can feel Mihawk's gaze on him as tangibly as a touch. It's -- nice. He's getting much too used to being admired, but he isn't about to stop it right then.
Instead, once the warlord is naked too (which takes a minute; Mihawk is about 60% leg), Koby crawls back up to straddle over his waist, rising up on his knees, thighs bracketing the man's hips. The dim light of the fireplace is enough to see how turned on he is, how the insides of his thighs are streaked wet, but he doesn't lower down, doesn't let Mihawk do anything except admire.
Reaching out, Koby takes Mihawk's hands and moves them by his head, their positions reversed wholly now. He takes a slow, measured breath, then leans down, kissing Mihawk deep and firm. His turn to be possessive. His turn to tease. They've slept together a handful of times, but Koby's always been on his back or bent over something. This is the first time he's had this much power, been on top.]
Remember, don't move. [He breathes it out, reaching down to stroke up the length of Mihawk's cock, making sure he's hard enough.] Unless you really can't stand it. [And, judging by how slow, how unhurried Koby's hand is, he's going to do everything he can't to make obeying unbearable.]
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He sees that telling wetness and again, hot desire pulses through him. Enough to make his cock twitch. By now, he was more than half-hard and well on his way to being completely hard as Koby grips his cock. Despite being together multiple times, they had only just barely scraped the surface of being together. He was still mastering Koby's body and this was an entirely new angle.)
You'll find that I have infinite patience when the payout is worth it.
(And he does.)
My question is if you can stand it. (His eyes flicker down and he makes a slow show of sliding his tongue across his own bottom lip, tipping his head to the side.)
You're already a mess. Do you want me to tidy you up while we wait? I only need my tongue to pull you apart.
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But he's not leaving. He's there, beautiful and frustrating. He's not going anywhere for at least a little while. The thought is oddly comforting, and it shows on Koby's face for an instant, a flicker of bittersweetness that he covers up by shifting backwards, bracing himself with one hand on Mihawk's chest.]
I'll take it into consideration. [He says it almost primly, squeezing Mihawk's cock once more, then moving his hand away. Keeping their eyes locked, Koby slowly drags his own fingers through the slick gathering between his legs, rising up on his knees so Mihawk can see, can watch him touch, can see him press his index finger inside, prompting a soft, shuddery exhale. Then he settles down, slowly, grinding the wet seam of his cunt along Mihawk's cock, a languid, unhurried roll of his hips.]
But I think I like this better, right now. [It's breathless, a little embarrassed at his own daring, but it's soon eclipsed by how good this feels, rocking his hips just slightly, just enough to tease them both, enough to drip all over Mihawk's cock.]
a mile long of pining lmao
This is nice though. This is better than nice. Mihawk was used to taking the dominant role. He was used to being the one to make the assertive moves and decide how sex would unfold. He didn't trust others to be good enough at sex to give them the reigns. And really, he had no reason to trust Koby with that either.
The difference was that he wanted to. He liked the way Koby didn't really know what he was doing, but that Koby wanted to do it so badly. That he was passionate about wanting to be good. It already made him better than most Mihawk had slept with. Enthusiasm went a long way.
Plus there was something something about emotions or whatever, but Mihawk wasn't paying any attention to that part of the situationship.
It's evident the moment Mihawk is hit with what Koby does. The smirk drops from his face and his jaw clenches up in that now telling way of his whenever Koby manages to sneak under his skin. A gesture of control and the implication that Koby had managed to rattle that control even if only mildly.
He watches Koby with rapt attention. Knowing how prude and squeaky clean Koby was, the sight of Koby touching himself and then grinding against Mihawk was arguably one of the hottest things Mihawk had ever seen. Maybe actually the hottest. Then Koby slips his finger inside of himself and Mihawk's mind goes completely blank. The same way it went blank and steady during the middle of a good fight. There was nothing but Koby. No castle, no strange world, no pirates, no marines, no sea, no land. Nothing. Just Koby.
He's clenching his teeth hard, but his hands even harder, blunt, clean nails biting into the meat of his palms. He exhales slowly through his nose, trying hard to maintain a sense of dignity.
His pupils have blown out and it only serves to emphasize his strange, ringed eyes. How foolish of people to not realize how well paid he was for his allegiance to Koby and the straw hats. He would burn cities down just for a second of this. It gave him a sense of liveliness that he rarely found anymore these days - even with sword fighting.
Life had become so dull. There had been no one as good with swords as he was. He had never been swayed by treasures or sex. Life was long and he had seen and done it all. These days, he often felt like there was nothing left to do. That there was nothing left to surprise him, to tantalize him, to challenge him.
Yet here he was. All within the same short frame of time, his life had been twisted around on itself. Expectations were exceeded. First came Zoro with his ridiculous three swords and recklessness, but his obvious potential. Someone who had given Mihawk a glimmer of anticipation and hope.
Then came Koby. Koby gave him things that Mihawk didn't realize he wanted or cared about. He had never chased sex the way others had, but there was an allure to Koby that caught him off guard just as much as Zoro had, just in a different realm. Koby who would lose immediately in a fight to Mihawk smiled and laughed with him in bed. Koby had his strict moral code and disdain for pirates and men like Mihawk.
Yes, Mihawk knew this would never last. Not when people like Luffy existed who would guide Koby's heart at the end of the day. Even if Mihawk could make Koby's toes curl and his thighs quiver, Mihawk wasn't the sort of person Koby would keep his eyes on for long. It was an arrangement. A temporary agreement until Koby could figure out another way to survive in this world.
No one from home trusted Mihawk, and they were right to distrust. It was nothing about deserve. Mihawk did not believe in such things. He believed in rationality and logic. The others would continue to distrust him. For now, it would be enough that Zoro had agreed to train with him. It was enough that Koby agreed to sleep with him.
Mihawk closes his eyes to soak in the sensation of Koby sliding against him. He had fallen silent, but more out of distrust for himself. He felt like he was on the brink of saying something absurd or losing control embarrassingly fast.
Once he felt a bit more in charge, he opened his eyes back up.)
You are such an unexpected delight. (Okay, see, now, that's not at all what he had wanted to say, damn it.)
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Good. [It's soft, heated -- it's praise. This thing between them makes no sense to anyone else, because they can't conceive why Dracule Mihawk, the warlord of the seas, the greatest swordsman of the age, would possibly find anything valuable in sharing the bed of a green, untested, scrawny little marine cadet. And when he thinks about it like that, Koby can't argue. He doesn't understand it either. Mihawk could have anyone with him right now.
But he doesn't. He has Koby, trembling and breathless, cupping Mihawk's face and leaning in for another kiss, this one deeper, messy, hungry. He has Koby in his lap, spread out and shivering and grinding against his cock, shifting his hips and gasping into his mouth at the teasing nudge to his clit. He's here. He's real and he's here, and Koby is --
-- closing his eyes, resting his forehead against Mihawk's, trying to catch his breath. It's just endorphins, just chemicals in his brain, his body, betraying him. Making him feel things, with that raw, open-hearted honesty the world hasn't beaten out of him yet. Making him think that maybe, maybe...he can have this. Maybe this won't disappear.
Maybe Koby's allowed to hold onto one damn thing in his entire life, and maybe, god damn it, he wants it to be this.
At least it's not abnormal for Koby to get teary in bed. That way when he opens his eyes and they're bright and wet, it won't seem out of place. He exhales, rising up on his knees again, then reaching back once more. He can think about things later, when he's alone. Right now he doesn't want to waste a single second.] Your turn. [One hand curls around Mihawk's cock, guiding the head to slide through the soaked mess of his cunt, teasing up and down, slowly. Koby leans forward, kisses the corner of Mihawk's mouth, breathes against his lips:] Beg.
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He kisses back like a man who has gone days without food or water. Desperation slipped between their tongues. It's difficult to not grab his face, not touch, but he complies to Koby's original command of don't move.
He opens his eyes to Koby's wet eyes, and a fierce part of him wants to kiss Koby tenderly, as he finds himself wanting to do with increasing frequency lately. It's on the tip of his tongue to suggest that he take back over, that he hold Koby and fuck him slow.
But Koby gathers himself. More than gathers himself. A breath stutters out of him as his cock is guided to Koby's cunt and it may as well be the goddamn holy land for the way Mihawk tenses up in anticipation. What he doesn't expect is for Koby to tell Mihawk to beg. It makes his brain pop off a bit, his gaze vacant, because frankly, literally no one alive has ever told Mihawk to beg or anything like it.
It's absurd. It's ridiculous and borderline suicidal to tell a man with such pride and prestige to beg for the likes of a lowly marine cadet.
But this isn't just some man and this isn't just some cadet.
This is Mihawk and Koby. Koby who, Mihawk realizes, could possibly get Mihawk to agree to just about anything when the delicious swell of his cunt is grinding against his cock like that.
Perhaps for a night, he can put his ego aside after all.)
...Please. (His voice comes out quiet and almost awkward. Mihawk doesn't know if he has ever said 'please' in any semblance of sincerity. Sarcasm was part of his native tongue but today, it was absent entirely. He lets out another breath, shakier.)
...Please...Take me.
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There's another one of those smiles, warm and fond and proud, there's Koby's hand at the side of Mihawk's face for a moment longer, thumbing the corner of his mouth before moving back to brace himself. His fingers spread wide on Mihawk's chest, over his heart, claws digging in just slightly as he obeys, as he sinks down onto the warlord's cock in one fluid, smooth motion.
And then they dig in a little more, because the angle, the depth is entirely new, getting a shaky, shuddery breath that feels like it comes right from Koby's soul. He has to stay still for a moment, adjusting, heart pounding, thighs shivering, cunt throbbing around Mihawk. He'd had all these ideas about teasing more, about riding the pirate to completion in full, smug control of the entire situation -- and maybe, someday, he will.
But right now, trembling, teary, leaving scratches down Mihawk's chest, Koby lifts his eyes again and pleads, softly:] Touch me. [Having the power isn't worth not having those hands on him, guiding, prompting, caressing. Koby shifts his hips, whines high and shaky in his throat.] Please.
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